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Book Review : Black Friday

There are only a few books that actually make you think so hard that you want to write about it. Black Friday is definitely "the" book that provoked my thought process and forced me to re-evaluate my secular view. Morevoer , the book reinforced my belief that reality is much more forceful than fiction ,i.e. if the author has done his due diligence.
I must say that the author does a splendid job of taking the stance of an on-looker ,merely stating facts and drawing logical conclusions from these facts. Although the intricate details get a little boring but at the same time they point towards the kind of effort has put into this book.
Okay, so much so for the author's style . The main thing i want to discuss here is that after reading this book I have begun to beleive that India can only dream of being secular.All of us have read in the text books that secularism is good and religious tolerance should be cherished. But no one told us at what cost. I don't want to take sides of any religion. There are fanatics on both sides but the problem is that only one religion actually thinks that India is its country and that is where I have a pproblem.
This book says that Bomaby blast were nothing but a retailation of what happened in Ayodhya. No doubt what happpened in Ayodhya is regretable but Bombay blasts were not targeted at the Hindus. If these blasts had targeted Hindu temples or any such symbols of Hinduism I could have agreed that they were a form of anger towards a community but these blasts targeted national symbols such as the BSE, the Air India building .When WTC was brought down , america called it an attack on the nation .Doesn't the same theory apply here?
Often Media writes about the so called involvement of a foreign hand in these events.But how can such a foreign hand exist unless there is support from with in.The people who executed these blasts were not Pakistanis . They were Indians .How may times will I see outfits like SIMI and LET cropping up in the heart of India ?
Another point i will like to bring out is that minorities in India always take undue advantage of their underprevilige situation. the majority of the hindu community is as underpreveliged as these minorities so why should these minorities get any special treatment. i think it will be appropriate to bring out the fact that the Musilm community is the only community that fails to adhere to the Uniform Civil Code. May I ask Why this special treatment? No where in the world is there a separate civil code for any community. No other community in India has ever got any help from other nations based on religion. Jews don't get help from Israel to protect their minority interest nor do the christians cry out for help to the half of world that is Christians.

i am writing again ..just some (s)crap

I have decided that I will write the title when I have finished writing this blog. I don't have anything specifc in my mind just want to write something. Well for starters i am a bit scared these days because I think my work schedule is going back to what is used to be in college and I hate that. Research : I am here just for the sake of glamour. I don't like working on something I know nothing about I am jus making guesses and my gusses are as good as any one elses. I should move out of research asap becuase this is not for me. I don't have enough conviction to pursue anything for a very long time. Its just me..I want quick answers a lot of people to work with working on challenging problems almost kills me

Appraisal : I love it

The following blog is based on true events. Names of certain characters have been changed to preserve confidentiality. Some of the events have been exaggerated for dramatic adaptation.

9AM :
Boss : Saket ,fill your self appraisal form and send it across.

(Me thinking :Yet another self appraisal. What should I write? Since they say an eye for an eye ,I thought a CRAP for a CRAP is not that bad a idea. CRAP by the way stands for Cant Resist Adding Pain)

Here are my responses

Q :Did you meet the goals you set at the begining of this term?

A: This is a very subjective question. If you ask me I say yes and you say no and since you say no when your boss asks you ,you have to say no since you said no to me ,so how can you achieve your goals if I did not because your goal is to see that I meet my goals. So the best strategy is I say yes and you say yes.

Q:Did you follow the processes?

A: Yes,I tactfully delegated the processes to other people. (So technically this question should be on their forms)
(Close Answer :
Processes ????I did not get the hand book.)

10:30 AM : Boss: Saket,Lets have a chat.(Yeh to hona hi tha)

Boss: Saket , You do blah blah blah right
Me : hmm..
Boss : You do blah blah blah wrong
Me : hmmm ....No but.....
Boss : You do blah blah blah right
Me : thats okay...but..
Boss : You have tremendous potential
(Meaning : the potential will never be realized)
I have teremendous confidence in you and you will go places if you improve upon certain things
(Meaning : forget it this time you will get close to average hike and the meeting ends here)

(Come on guys be creative just for once. All of us know the sandwich method of giving a feed back.Well my experience tells me "blah blah rights" don't count "blah blah wrong" does.)

Closing remark:

Boss : You need to control your emotional outbursts. You are just one step short of voilence when you loose your temper.I will do everything possible to help you. Do Yoga if that helps.

Me : I am already meditating, Sir

Kuchch Sher : Tanhai ke naam

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kitna kuchch tha kehne ko
kitna kuchch tha sunne ko

batein to thi kehne ko
par lafzon main tha sannatta

bhaav bhi the us chehre par
par woh bhi the kuchch khaali se

paani bhi tha ankhon main par
woh bhi tha kuchch khaara sa

kitna kuchch tha kehne ko
kitna kuchch tha sunne ko
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Zindgi meri aansuo me dhal gai,
sare jaha ki mujhse nazre badal gai,
waqt ne aisa sitam kiya hai dosto,
ki har aarju meri hatho se fisal gai..
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zameen ka ek tukda
khidkiyon main jhankti khidkiyan
asmaan ka ek kona
nahin chahiye nahin chahiye
mujhe chahiye poora asmaan
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likhta hoon haale dil, dil ka haal samajh lena
alfaaz to keh na payenge ,dil ki baat samajh lena

Sant Valenteen divas

Poora vishva kisi pyar ke sant ka janam din mana raha hai aur main samay vyateet karne ke liye yeh blog likh raha hoon.Sonch raha hoon kya likhoon . Kuchch goodh sawaal mere antarman main kautuhal paida kar mere hriday ki peeda ko nirantar hi anant kar rahe hain...

Kehte hain logon ka bhagya janam se phele hi likh diya jaata hai .Kaun se bhagvaan likhte hain yeh to main nahin jaanta lekin mera bhagya avahsya hi Pavanputra ne likha hai....nahin to jeevan ke kisi mod ke kisi andhkaar porna kone main hi sahi par kisi kanya ka prayojan avashya hota

Are prabhu aap to bhagvaan hain....aap ajar amar hain...aap gyani hain.....aap apni pratigya se atal hain.....par meri bhagya rachna karte samay keval ek baar apna bhramcharya ka vrat kuchch kshanon ke liye toda hota to yeh sevak aaj yeh blog nahin likh raha hota.

Meri manein to ab aap bhi Indra aur Krishna se mitrata badhayein.Mera kya ... main to ek tuchch prani hoon agar aajeevan stri vihin rehna pada to bhi sirf ek jeevan ki baat hai.
Kintu prabhu aap...jinka koi aadi hai na ant...kya yeh vichaar aapke man ko kabhi vyakul nahin karta?

Ab yeh shanka bhi to niradhaar nahin ki aap stri viheen hone ki katuta se uttapan kop ka bhajan humein bana rahe hain.

Hey prabhu,aap kahein to apne saath main aapke liye bhi prarthna karoonga, kintu meri bhagya rachna par punah vichaar karein.


Jaya Hanumana gyana guna sagara
Jaya Kapisa tihun loka ujagara
Rama doota atulita bala dhama
Anjani-putra Pavana suta nama
Mahavira Vikrama Bajrangi
Kumati nivara sumati Ke sangi
Jaya Hanumana gyana guna sagara
Jaya Kapisa tihun loka ujagara

Life ,Destiny and Death

The title does not convey the meaning fully, but I have kept it this way purposely. The reason is that most people think these concepts are independent of each other. What I am realizing and what the correct title should have been is :
"Life's destiny is death"

How many of us think that we are alive ? How do we know we are alive ?
more importantly what is this thing called life?

Life is nothing but a state of perpetual daze in which we keep repeating the routine acts like zombies to keep the illusion called life, alive.

All of us are just waiting ,waiting for the time to free ourselves from the routine acts and this can happen only when we die. We are not allowed, we are not trained to do things other than routine. No matter what you do things are going to become regular/routine /mundane at some point . So most of us (including me) try to dodge the certainity called death by creating a third state other than life and death and we do this by switching what we do but this only works for a few days and then again you are back to routine and the wait starts all over again.


Some say I don't have passion and I say passion is just another illusive concept . A concept that acts like consolation for doing routine things while waiting for death. Its just another way to say I am as good as machine now.

It looks like death is dictating the terms and conditions of your life. Its like saying you have limited time so don't try to do too many things .Just do what you are supposed to do.

The way things are ,most of us will have comfortable lives but lives devoid of choices.

You can say that you are alive only when you have control over everything in your life ,even death. Only then you could say that you did not wait for death it was just a choice you made. All of us want to break free from everthing that we are expected to do and do what we want to do.What we want is not fixed ,it keeps changing, so according to me we want to live life day by day. We want to live in the spur of the moment and want to die when we choose to die because then death will be one of the choices we make and not our destiny. Infact there will be no destiny and there will be no life but we will be alive and since there will no life there will be no death!!,there will be just the moment!!!

THERE WILL BE NOW.....NOW IS ABOUT CHOICES.......NOW IS ABOUT INDEPENDENCE....NOW IS ABOUT DEFYING DEATH....NOW IS ABOUT NO LIFE....NOW IS JUST NOW....